It's only everything...

...isn't it, though?

My best friend Rob is the lead singer of a tremendous Indie band, known as Beezle.

As Rob is my aforementioned best friend and therefore brother, it is only natural that I have been following Beezle since their conception several years ago.

Currently, one of their songs is my favorite songs amongst favorite songs.

The name of this song is "It's Only Everything."

This song is my said favorite because it's hook, it's title, pretty much sums up where I am at during this stage in my life: I have to focus on Only Everything.

Year Two of "The Great Illinois Sojourn" I call grad school is over in six week. Then it's a summer of Shakespeare in Utah and one more year here in the cornfields. Then it is...where? Possibilities are endless, yet limited. Ostensibly, New York, Los Angeles, and Chicago (in descending order) are my viable choices, career-speaking.

So, if I descend on one of these cities, what do I give?

Why, Only Everything.

And what does Everything entail? My talent, my relationship, my friendships, my family, my self? Can I give everything I have to be something I aspire to? Is greatness derived from absolute success in my field, or is success in my field derived from absolute greatness?

Do I want to hold my cake and taste it at once?

I have friends who are fans but no fans who are friends.

I have everything and nothing, which is Only Everything.

I'm just a drunk in a band.

A band of actors, making their way forward, ever forward.

However, one thing can be said now: I love where I'm at. I love where I am headed. What's missing is...Only Everything.

Thanks, Rob...for writing this song.